Hello darkness, my old friend. I have to talk to you again.

I never thought I would feel so lonely and lost again. I thought I would be over it but even almost 3 years later I still feel that hole inside my chest. I still feel the darkness inside of me and can't put in words how I actually feel. It came to the point where I just want to lay in my bed, listen to sad music and cry. Well I don't even want to cry but it just happens. Without a proper reason. Somehow my heart hurts so much that I can literally feel it aching. I don't know what happened that I am in that state again and I should actually be so happy, to have my lovely boyfriend and all my good friends, but they don't understand what I feel inside and they probably never will....

 

 

All I had to do to save my own life was to look into your eyes.

Ich ging verloren in der Welt da draußen.
Auf der Suche nach einem brandneuen Weg, um zu fallen.
Es ist keine Überraschung, dass Dinge schlimmer geworden sind,
und ich danke Gott dafür, dass er mich nie hat fallen lassen.

Und ich brauchte mich nicht so lange anzulügen,
ich brauchte nicht so weit zu gehen,
ich brauchte nicht diejenigen, die ich liebe, sich so einsam fühlen lassen.
Ich brauchte nicht zu sterben, um in den Himmel zu kommen,
ich brauchte bloß nach hause gehen.

Als ich die Zeit meines Lebens hatte.
Ich denke meine Seele starb ein kleines bisschen jeden Tag.
Ich habe immer angerufen, um zu sagen, dass es mir Leid tut.
Du sagtest es sei okay, aber es sollte dir Leid tun.
Und nach all dem, gingst du nie weg.

Und ich brauchte mich nicht so lange anzulügen,
ich brauchte nicht so weit zu gehen,
ich nicht diejenigen, die ich liebe, sich so einsam fühlen lassen.
Ich brauchte nicht zu sterben, um in den Himmel zu kommen,
ich brauchte bloß nach hause gehen.

In die Arme von meinem Engel,
In den Frieden, den ich zurückgelassen habe.
Alles was ich tun musste, um mein Leben zu retten,
war in deine Augen zu schauen.

It's been you all along

See the years just keep passing us by.
And yet, you still keep catching my eye,
and you just keep improving,
loving how you do it.
Your the sweetest music to my ears.
And you just can do no wrong,
it's been you all along, you influenced this song,
Baby maybe I'm gone.
Yes I got it bad, Usher came and told me that.
Hope you know I mean that.

I'd rather give you time instead of roses
see your face instead of cash
I'd rather give you love instead of clothing
is that too much to ask?
Baby all i want is you
all i want is you
Baby all i want is you
all i want is you
Baby your all i want.


Now I might sound a little bit strange
I know every dude aint feeling this way.
Baby, they ain't got you, most of them ain't met you
You know that soundtrack to my life
If I'm jay-z you're beyonce
I need you like the pistons need chauncey
Believe me when I say that this ain't make believe
Baby you were made for me
hope you know I mean that

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how

You made me cry, you made me smile

You made me cry, you made me smile.
You took the time to take  a while.
To show me what we could be
and i believed in every word
and every lie I've ever heard.
How could you... you do this to me?

Oh, and I will not apologize for your mistakes.
Those were yours to make and for all the nights,
that I sat and cried, you owe me an apology.

It took These years for you to see and love that you, you had for me
Now it's too late, too far too late to be.
And everything that I ever hoped and every song, that I ever wrote.
I love you, but you could never love me.

Oh, and I will not apologize for your mistakes.
Those were yours to make and for all the nights,
that I sat and cried, you owe me an apology.

You made me cry, You made me smile.
You took the time to take a while
To show me what we could never be. 

 

Nobody knows what I feel inside