I never thought I would feel so lonely and lost again. I thought I would be over it but even almost 3 years later I still feel that hole inside my chest. I still feel the darkness inside of me and can't put in words how I actually feel. It came to the point where I just want to lay in my bed, listen to sad music and cry. Well I don't even want to cry but it just happens. Without a proper reason. Somehow my heart hurts so much that I can literally feel it aching. I don't know what happened that I am in that state again and I should actually be so happy, to have my lovely boyfriend and all my good friends, but they don't understand what I feel inside and they probably never will....
